How Lorri Spykerman gave me my life 07/24/2011
Recovery, Day One... On November 4th, 1999, I decided to voluntarily check myself into an alcohol and drug treatment centre for 28 days. Even though I hadn’t done any drinking or used any hard drugs (like cocaine) in months, I was what some people would label a functional alcoholic or addict. Not that I saw myself that way, mind you. But I pretended to when I went for my assessment so they would let me into the centre. Because the real truth was, I went to treatment so I could make more money. If that all sounds a bit strange, let me explain. In the late ‘90s, I owned a small, five employee recruitment firm called The Executive Network. For over a decade I had done every self-help program I could get my hands on to achieve more business success. However what I also kept doing was sabotaging myself, in countless different ways, including the use of alcohol and drugs. While not on them right now, I also couldn’t stop smoking pot, chain smoking cigarettes and drinking coffee – and for some reason I believed that these “habits” were stopping me from earning all the millions of dollars I wanted.. My girlfriend (Lorri Spykerman) in those days had a severe drug problem. And I became inspired when she made amends to me for all the things she stole from me to feed her addiction. I witnessed her undergo a profound personality change as a result of dealing with her crack cocaine addiction in treatment. So I arrogantly thought, “if this type of transformation can happen for a low-life crack head like her” – perceiving myself as being superior to her - I figured whatever self-help program she was doing in this treatment center would help me stop smoking cigarettes, weed and drinking coffee. I even told my staff that this was the reason I was going into treatment, and soon I would be back to lead us all to wealth. And they were excited!! Looking back now, I see that what was really driving me was an ‘addiction’ to money, power and success. In fact, just prior to treatment I had finished writing an unpublished mini-book which I titled “How I became a Billionaire by the age of 50: an autobiography of the future by Scott Gallagher”. I kid you not! I did not see myself as an alcoholic or addict, but I needed to convince the treatment center that I did, or they would not accept me as a client. So I "lied". Lorri Spykerman made amends to me while she was in treatment. She was "being the change you want to see in others" as Ghandi said. She never even suggested I needed treatment. She never told me I was an addict. She was the power of example. Who she was being was so attractive that a "high-bottom" addict, that did not see himself as being an addict, willingly chose to get help for a problem he did not know he even had. As a result of going to treatment, I found my mission in life - "my mission in addiction". It is mind-boggling when I try and think about the profound impact Lorri has made to this planet, just by causing me to go to treatment. Despite all the abuse and violence I inflicted on Lorri during the years we did drugs together, she asked me to be the master of ceremonies at her wedding. Many people acknowledge me for the difference I have made in theirs and their families lives. For me, all that acknowledgment also goes to Lorri!! I have a life that I love beyond measure. Thank You Lorri! Add Comment The Fastest Marathon EVER 06/18/2011
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